too BLESSED to be STRESSED...

actually i'm not promoting one of the school rule of 'must hv 1 cca!', but
i just feel so..

when people say, "oh you have cca today? i dont have u know?*evil grin*"
i could simply answer,"it's ok..i enjoy my cca..i'm having fun there;p..life without cca is too stressful for me.."
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yesterday was supposed to be our last cca performance in ijc..
yes, stepping down performance by the j2s, (n xtra j1 boys though for some reasons;p)..

the j2s are stepping down soon...>.<..in two weeks time if i'm not mistaken..

i'm gonna miss it for sure;p..
gonna miss the fun..dinner..outing..performances..watching concert..dance studio..backstage restroom..bruises..muscle pain.."jig-a-low";p(this makes us famous man, or rather infamous;p)..stolen cheer-leading mat..laughter..times when we suddenly got hyped up..the roll,split,jump,spin,crunches.back arc,handstand,..funny videos n pics..crazy things we did..etc etc..

somehow in this cca, i can have a feeling of being a dancer.. esp this year..
to be out of myself..
to express..
to release..
to learn..
i learn many things..
from dance skills to social skills;p..

i do feel that without cca my jc life will be so boring..
yeah, i love my cca.. love the people inside..;p..

i still remember when i skipped dance for 2weeks+ because of joining floorball..
yeah, i wanted to stay in floorball(like it too;p), but i really really couldnt and didnt want to leave dance.. that was the reason why i never told my cca teacher that i was going for floorball, because i do not want to be officially out of dance..haha...

finally, the regulation of no transferring cca was absolute, making me stay in dance(was quite sad though because the school hv 1 official cca policy,..cant join both><)
and the consequence was i needed to catch up with the new movement that is going to be performed in less than 3 weeks time..

and the problem was...
my short term memory;p..
i usually cant remember the choreo easily,
i was not so confident that i can follow the dance...
but miraculously, on the day when i stepped in again to the dance studio(after some weeks on the futsal court and gym),
i could remember every movement..
in abt 1hour only..(plus some mass practice after that)
i could recall the dance in whole..
even i couldnt believe myself at that time.. that i really made it:)
so i only need to polish up the movement when the instructor came the week after:)..

besides, unexpectedly, this year we did a lot of performances leh...last year only 1(the whole year, since i wasnt involved in syf), this year we had 5 alr..yesterday was the 5th performance this year,which was supposedly our stepping down performance...but, u know what..
the teacher likes it.. i dunno exactly who..
but...
we are asked to perform again...(details are still confidential, not in school anw;p)
hmm...she didnt know that yesterday was supposedly our last performance i guess;p...
not bad lah..
got something to do..better than nothing..maybe it's going to be called"after stepping down" or "nostalgic"performance?haha
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<3 ij dance club..<3 my batch, n juniors too:)

anw, <3 floorball too...all the best for floorball a-div gals..though i'm no longer in the team, i'll always support all of u:)..hope ij floorball team can bring glory to the school;p..was having great times training with you gals:)..

which one do you think is easier:
to compliment or to criticize?

i think it's not so difficult to praise others, esp when they are good(better than us), but it is just easier to criticize..agree? maybe we dont really aware when we criticize others. it simply comes out from our mouth(or action?) when we see things are not perfectly done (by others)...

but before you do that, have you ever thought of what will others feel when they are being criticized? better rephrase the question:
how do you feel when u are criticised? is it better than being praised?;p

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why we criticize others?
is it because we think we can do better than them? we think we are more qualified?
if yes, why dont we become the ones who do it?
try to put our feet in their shoes..
maybe we can think,if we are them, what things make them doing 'dissatisfactory' job?
is it because of lack of experience, lack of confidence, lack of preparation, busyness? can be anything rite?
if we think we are more capable, maybe we can try to show up(but not showing off please), then we can contribute something better for society;p?
who knows that they have sacrifice something and prepare they best, but they just cant do it perfectly.. if it is because of lacking of experience, why dont we give them one or two more try? remember practice makes perfect:)

our contribution can be in form of suggestion.. instead of saying 'oh it's rather bad', why dont we say, " i think you should do this for this and that for that so it can be like this and not like that, thus it will be better.." and u may say also, "may i help u in correcting this and this?"
dont just talk..show it..act it.. prove that what we tell them to do can improve something and feasible..:)

if we think we are not better, but we still like to criticize others...
hmm..maybe we need a bigger mirror;p...

anyway,i never say we cannot criticize people..
criticism is sometimes needed to encourage people to do better.. if it is constructive, why not?
however, if it is destructive, hmm..please think twice...=D
maybe the degree of "destructiveness" is different depends on the temperament of each person..but i think we know what kind of criticism is destructive rite?;p


we may also learn to compliment others.. yeah, if we find people doing good deeds, maybe a 'good job' phrase can brighten their day? compliment can make people feel appreciated, existing, taken into account etc.. (this excludes sarcasm;p)

as human-beings, we need some words of affirmation or appreciation...
but when we are praised, we need to remember one thing: be humble.. (and also be skeptical, ask yourself: do they really praise you? sometimes people praise you to cast you down.. why? because u maybe proud, arrogant, and thus underestimate things when we are praised high.. and finally you will fall from high..ouch.. i know this does happen!)

just like one of my quotes on my fb account: "It is no great things to be humble when you are brought low; but to be humble when you are praised is great and rare attainment"..

let's attain it together, would you?

2-3 april.. 1st time visit to malaysia..haha...
AWESOME!!
hmm, maybe partially because of the new experience, but
mainly of course because of the experience on the event itself

i really felt the Love in my life..
the real unconditional love.. u know why?
simply because i don't deserve it..

on the night session, i simply felt the peace in my heart,
and the strong Love..and assurance that
"Yes, you are perfectly loved"..
the feeling was rather indescribable..just imagine when u r loved when u actually don't deserve the love.. ..
it's like the prisoner who is being set free without doing much good deeds.. something like that..i think u get it lah;p..

i have many ups and downs in my life journey..
i often fall,
but He raises me up,
and wipes the tears of my sorrow..
makes me stand up again on my feet..
and guides me through the perfectly-planned journey..
according to His will..

though the way may not be so smooth..
He will lead me on..
He will carry me through..
but as i grow up, He lets me walk on my own..
so i can choose where i want to go..
but He still walks in front of me, giving guidance..
on which way i should go..

Though he may not carry me at all times,
he will never leave me walking alone,
not even once..
so i will never fall too badly, nor be lost too far..;p

when i turn my face away..
He will immediately call me back..
says, "come back, I have written a long list of My beautiful plan for your future in My planner"..


how could i not love Him then?;p
-And this is love, not that we had love for Him, but that He had love for us..
yes, He did love me first..and the good news is : He loves you too:)

we need love in order to love,
but we are often disappointed if we rely on human merely..
there's some occasions where people (eg parents, friends, spouse, etc etc),who supposedly love you, but they abandon you, disappoint you, hurt you..:( so how can we love if we are not being loved?
we cannot give what we don't have, true?

that's why we need the Love from the core..
it can only be found in God.. He's the source of perfect love..
He loves you just the way you are..as long as you are willing to be shaped?

and when His love is overflowing in our life, it shouldn't be difficult to spread the love to our neighbour, right?
in fact we cant contain it anymore and we will have strong desire to spread it out to people who need it..

Let the love be always in the air:)